To be, too much.

A tower moment.

An ego death. 

A loss for words. 

Hopeless. 

Alone. 

Lost. 

You were destined to grow

but you chose to resist. 

You were destined to evolve,

but you chose to stay.

In another timeline,

We evolved together.

But in this timeline - it was too much. 

I was too much,

for you. 

We feel too much.

We think too much,

We express too much.

Do you know what being “too much” has shown me?

The power we, as humans, cultivate.

True Power comes from being your most authentic “weird” “too much” self.

Don’t hold on to me, for I will break you. 

Why?

Because I use true power to break my heart open to understand the depths of my own self.

An open hearted lover, a masterpiece, created from a broken heart.

I project a heart wide open.

The difference between you and I, is I take the journey understand the Self.

I am built from & for a strong heart. 

A heart formed from the ashes of what was & what will be.

My heart tells me the secrets gifts of the phrase “you're too much.” 

Before we travel together towards the secrets of “too much” I wish for your heart & mind to know…

We are all too much. 

We are all not enough. 

We are all good enough to be human. 

We are all bad enough to be human.

It’s a choice on whether you wish to be what you desire.

Good, bad, enough, too much, not enough.

It is a mind choice to decide on which one you wish to be.

To be, too much.

I look inwards to grow.

To cultivate a beautiful garden of growth. 

To create a reality of unconditional love & compassion. 

To steer a ship powered by a strong heart & soul. 

An inwards quest to send love & light to the shadows behind the phrase,

“You’re too much.”

Ha. 

Someone who feels like they are “too much” has the ability to create worlds, manifest magic, transcend timelines. 

I may be too much for you. 

I, however, am enough for the world I thrive in.

A queen.

A girl.

A humble warrior.

A person who thinks in linear solutions will always see a mind like mine as

too much. 

My mind sees in quantum timelines. 

My mind sees all. 

My mind sees you for you.

My mind accepts you for you.

If you vibrate at a lower frequency,

my mind leaves you where you are.

Which, oftentimes, is where you were found in the first place. 

Devotion is the power I use to let you go.

Determination is the power I use to let you go.

Focus is the power I use to let you go.

I see your ego with my mind & I raise you my mind powered by my soul.

To the artist -

A captured artist. 

A tortured artist. 

What about a free artist? 

Someone who believes in the unknown so much so life does life and the artist says true to the art of life. 

Someone who let’s go of the identity of the self completely and just lives. 

No ego.

No attachments.

No expectations. 

Just a creator, creating, through life. 

That is who we are. 

We may be too much for the world,

But we are souls of the universe.

A blessing.

A miracle. 

True Sight

I see clearly.

I see my fear, and understand.

I see my love, and understand.

I see my self, and understand. 

Too much for you, yes, but just enough for life I have always dreamed of. 

I dream of the day,

You take my hand with full trust

And allow me to show you the world. 

To show you a world with meaning.

A world with both light & dark.

A world seen through the lens of a true sight. 

I am angry. 

frustrated. 

I love unconditionally.

Honor me with your shadows. 

Honor me with your light.

I have the words to speak directly to you.

I write words to the cosmos,

to understand,

the stars

as they appear

Together as one. 

A romance. 

dependent on divine placement, divine timing.

Universal alignment.

I let the emotional attachment of you go. 

Over & over & over. 

It’s just what is meant to happen. 

I was too scared to leave on my own,

I became strong.

I became one.

Fuck you for ignoring me.

Fuck you for silencing me.

Fuck you for entrapping me. 

I am not a prisoner in a kingdom. 

I am the heart of a dragon.

Keeper of my keys,

I set my own heart on fire

to free my self from all external limitations.

Don’t put your own self in prison by being too weak to grow up from the emotions you identify with. 

If you think you are too weak to feel your own feelings you may never be strong enough to understand your self. 

So yes, I may be “too much”.

But, I’d rather be “too much” with the strength of a Phoenix

than too weak to understand my own self.