To Leap | To Flow | To Experience

Manifestation: Grow out of your own ego.

There is something about airplanes 

Stillness 

Meets

Inspiration. 

We are forced to sit in one stop 

Until the end of the journey. 

A practice of mindful stillness.

To be aware of how you feel during stillness,

Is to be mindful with your own soul during times of uncertainty. 

….

When I let myself think of you

I feel at home. 

How fucked up is that.

I had to stop thinking about you 

Because of how fucked up it is. 

Your ego, didn’t want me. 

But your home welcomed me,

for a moment.

So for that moment, let’s go back

to the past. 

To write about a moment with feelings.

A moment of my life. 

A moment of change.

A moment of love.

….

My hands get shaky as I try to write the words that describe how much your gentleness meant to me. 

*Crying on the airplane evoked

Bro. I get it. 

Thinking about how light that moment felt,

How truly light the entire journey felt. 

It’s heavy to think about now, because the moment

rejects me now. 

….

The moment that did not reject me,

felt effortless.

That moment is where I found meaning in the word

effortless. 

Being with you felt as though the sun and moon aligned within the heavens.

Our moment felt as though we were always meant to experience it.

To experience each other. 

To love one another. 

Our love for each other blossomed like a flower that had been nurtured so carefully with intention and magic. 

I fell madly in love with you during the span of 24 hours.

That’s all it took. 

Mad love.

You leaped, I flowed.


You loved me. I couldn’t believe it. 

I couldn’t believe how honest you were with me,

About feelings, 

About life,

About the mind,

About passions,

About dreams,

About darkness,

Through all of it, you were

Honest.

I am so fucking grateful for it all. 

Because I learned what it felt like to meet someone soul that truly mirrors my own. 

Fuck your ego - that shit still lingers. 

I’ve learned ego death through you.

I experience it as many times as you avoid detaching from your own.

Mirrors.

A soul made complete. 

Your soul is whole, and I flowed.  

My soul is whole, and you mirrored me.
You flowed. 

You experienced your manifestation. 

Flow. 

It’s grossly obvious how much of a manifestation I am. 

The universe's manifestation. 

Your manifestation. 

In that moment, we had no idea what was happening

In that moment, we had no control over any of it. 

We chose together,

To leap

To flow

To experience.

I am grateful for souls because of that.

I am grateful for souls because of everything.

Souls have been instrumental in my growth development, 

Unintentionally. 

I love giving souls power. 

I truly think every soul deserve it. 

I truly think each and every soul is meant for greatness. 

I truly think souls are meant for the spotlight, to be seen, to be heard, to be felt.

You little fire sign.

No part of me wants to compete with souls. 

No part of me wants to take another souls power. 

No part of me wants to disarm the essence of a heart. 

No part of me wants to diminish everything magical a souls light can created. 

Instead,

I am proud of your soul.

I am proud to give a soul power without expectations.

I am proud to encourage a soul to reach for the spotlight. 

I am proud to speak with words and mean them. 

You are kind. 

You are smart. 

You are important. 

But, It’s not up to me to convince another human. 

A human heart has to reach a point where the heart feels worthy to experience all of it.

I can’t force someone to feel worthy of love. 

I can’t force someone to feel worthy of acceptance. 

I can’t force someone to feel worthy. 

I can’t force someone to feel.

You don’t trust me, 

I get it. 

Sadly, lack of trust is a projection that you don’t trust yourself. 

A projection stemmed from lack of belief for the self.

It’s up to you to venture on the quest towards self belief, to self trust, to self love. 

Once you trust yourself, once you believe in your spirit,

give yourself permission 

to trust 

that you 

were always right 

about us.

Trusting,

becomes effortless.

….

As freaky as feelings are, 

As freaky as moments can be,

This one is real, genuine, authentic, whole.

A real freak.

A mindset. 

A mindset would cause one to spiral into the void of it all.

In my present reality,

I choose to not water the what if’s

To wonder the what if’s…

What if, 

I see you again.

What if,

I touch you again.

What if,

I experience you again.

What if,

I love you again.

What if.

I’d sign my name over to the devil himself to touch your face again. 

To look in those blue eyes again. 

To hug you. 

To fucking hug you. 

Sounds like a dream.

Sounds like a dream I never want to wake up from. 

That line got me. 

That feeling got me. 

Complete Darkness.

I wear my pain well. 

I wear my hurt well. 

The world only knows so much. 

Because the world may not be entirely ready to understand 

This kind of love. 

A love that is was too good to be true.

I am grateful to experience a love that was too good to be true

with you.

I believe in impossible moments every chance I get. 

Making the impossible, 

Possible. 

It’s hard to not believe

in true love,

once you’ve experienced a version of it. 

Once upon a time.

….

Now we detach. 

We detach from human emotions.

We detach from experience.

We detach from home.

We detach from you. 

At the end of the day

True love is within our own selves. 

I don’t need you 

To have home

within me.

…

I don’t need you,

To have experience

Within me.

…

I don’t need you

To have feelings

Within me.

…

A soul can be a muse.

A light can be a muse.

A darkness can be a muse

Love. is. so. complicated. 

My soul knows it’s complicated

But she told me to hold tight. 

Take a deep breath.

And realize this is the universe we manifested: Constant inspiration. 

Without you here. 

My secret manifestation: Constant inspiration

With you here. 

No expectations

Just the feeling of home. 

The feeling of home

is what drives me.

is what guides me. 

is what loves me. 

That feeling of home. 

That moment we felt together. 

That moment is unmatched. 

That moment has yet to be felt again

To the level we experienced it at. 

That moment may not be meant to be experienced in that way ever again,

Harmful love.

The ego may be releasing a lot of noise.

I know it’s heavy. 

It is supposed to feel heavy. 

It’s ego

Being defeated. 

…

I don’t know if you think about me

But, if you do 

I pray it’s good thoughts. 

I pray it’s loving thoughts.

I pray that ego will not dismiss the hard work you’ve done to regain control over your own emotions.

…

I am sorry you fell in love with me. 

I know you weren’t asking for it.

I know you weren’t trying to find it. 

I know you didn’t need it. 

That’s why it happened. 

Forgive yourself. 

Forgive me.

Forgive that moment. 

Move on. 

Move forward. 

Evolve.